Life in the eyes of someone in love .

Sometimes we are just motivated by the bad things in life insead of foucsing in the good things in life .  I mean things get rough ,  but time will heal you.  This took 7 years to write.  God is good and only throws what you an handle .  2/16/14 - 04/30/21 

No sufro ni lloro no comparto tu ira ni la confucion profunda que reclmas momentons hermosos pero cada sueño tiene un fin claro La paz en mi corazon me quita la benda de, los ojos  el peso del pecho y me permite volar gritar y saltar a mi propio tiempo.  Tengo claridad, tranquilidad y seguridad.  Tan solo con quitarme una banda de los ojos  Osea tu cara estupida. 

Esta entrada haciedo muy dificile ya que se trata de una pequeña persona muy especial en mi vida .Es impresionante la forma en que puedes ver el refeljo de ti en alguien mas pequeño . lA mirada picarona , y traviesa Esa narizita tan pequeña que parecia perderse en su rostro . Aquel cabello negro churron que al jalar se enrroyaba como un esprial . como olvidarlo .. Aquellas lagrimas que soltabas de deseperacion cuando tus primeros dientes creacian , aquellos llantos de ira , cuando nadie queria compartir los juegets contigo . Aquellas lagrimas que hoy sultas por aquel primer decepcion de amor . De niña a mujer te has convertido , Piensas tener la respuesta para todo , deseperada por llevar la contraira al mundo El que nadie mas te entendia apesar de ti La battalla diaria en cual te sientes sola y que el mundo esta en tu contra es dfie a donde se fue el tiempo recuerdo , cuando  apenas cambiabas de tus dientes de leche después los braquetes y ahora tu sonri...

 A man will tell you about everything he has done,  A man will tell you how he doesn't care but does,  A man will tell you he knows because he has done it,  A man will tell you that he isn't asking because he doesn't need too,  A man will you he is listening yet won't need to remember it,  A man will tell you he did but its because its not your buisness,  A man will look you in the eyes and tell you he is a man not a boy.  A woman will look you in the eyes and not say anything and you'll know. 

 I've always been alone,  Growing up I was always told I talked TOO MUCH.  I remember walking my dog sunny in the park by my side thinking how .. HOW could I stop talking so much .. I didn't know how so I was told I should talk in my head or write ... so I did I've kept a journal since I was 8.  I began talking less and less and began to do more and more what others did, I wanted to be likable ... so I began to talk less about what I thought and more of what others might want to hear.  Somewhere between 15- and 18 I began to talk too much aging and felt alone, I noticed the more I wanted to make friends the more people pulled away.  College was so hard I lived alone with my older sister who was going through her own demons. I was alone aging with my thoughts in my head so I decided to focus.  My thoughts became ideas they became goals, and soon my. goal was to experience the world alone with myself.  I had two toxic relationships when I was in col...